37. Désordre

Last night I asked l (by phone of course, how else?) when am I supposed to give him his House series. He told to give it to his sister in school. I saddened when he told me this but ok, I agreed. As the hours past it started to grow on me. He just doesn't want to see me, I told myself. I thinks I'm boring and stupid and a waste of time.

Maybe he's right.

I cried a lot that night. I was sure this was the end of our friendship and that it's just impossible to just retrive it on my own, when he isn't even trying. So I kind of accepted it.

Today, when I came from school I got a message from him. 'Do you have Caritas today?' It made me smile a little. Last time when I had Caritas I was soooooo bored that I wrote to him. So I told him, that I have it every fortnight.

And then it occured to me. We could be this kind of 'little' friends, the kind that only needs each other every fortnight. It will still be a kind of a ritual, won't it? And maybe, after a while, we could relive our friendship right?

I talked with w for a long while after school. We feel the exact same way about t, he's just soooo like m! We kind of developed a love for t this way hahaha (not that I needed to, I already had somehing for him as you long know).

Did I ever tell you how much I love w? She knows me sooooo well.