I do not understand. l stopped texting me. I feel more alone than ever.
I spent a week in the countryside. I don't know what to think. I am tanned and ready to do whatever you wish. And sad. In the past week I had no connection with the outside world, e.g. computers, phones. And I seemed fine, quite fine. It's just that I had nothing to do. In that week I read Harry Potter for the thousandth time, listened to pidżama and bloc party, thought, just thought about everything: l, camp, friends... And I ended with a conclusion that camp was almost too good to be true. There everything was sooooo easy even if it didn't seem so there. I wish I could go back and relive with putting more heart into relationships with those people.
I feel like crying, I feel like crying.
In to weeks time I'm gonna leave for rhode island. I have no intention of going, I want to meet l.
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